sorry people . currently no tagboard :)

im AWESOME. you know it
just your ordinary 14-year old. you could clasify my life under ECCENTRIC. ive been thru alot. hurt&damaged
but never broken. lifes' never gotten easier , but im getting stronger. ive got friends whom are like family they live thru every
part of my life. hurt them and i'll hurt you , comprande? my lifes' simple yet complicated . love me or hate me , it aint so hard :)

yesterday was fathers day kan? :O
hm. i remember blogging about that day last year .
most of you guys alr know that my daddy passed away years ago . though i dont need pity or any sort of shit from anyone. you'd probably only make me feel WORSE . but anyways .
ive been noticing , well sometimes you guys dont appreciate your daddy as much as your supposed to & its really sad . i mean . sometimes he might do something really pissing off or you just resent him or whatever , but bare in mind that he IS your dad , without him or your mum thre would be no you. i remember months before my dad passed away , i fought with him . i never got a chance to say how sorry i was to him , how i never meant to hurt him in anyway , or how i never meant to scream at him just because i didnt get my own way. before i knew it , he was alr gone . & it was just too late. you guys would probably be thinking the phrase IT WAS JUST TOO LATE only occur in movies , dramas etc. but it really happened to me . the night he passed on , all i could do was whisper in his ears about how sorry i was . and how i didnt want him to go . honestly id rather had my dad leave us and went some whre than having him gone forever . because even if he left us , i could still call him , make an attempt to speak to him if i had a problem . but he passed away , & how the hell am i supposed to get GOD's hotline number ? i randomly cry sometimes just thinking about him and how empty i feel . and how noone in this bloody universe can answer my question , WHY AM I HERE AND WHY IS HE THRE ? WHY WAS I LEFT TO SUFFER LIKE THIS? GOD could have punished me in so many ways , but WHY THIS WAY? why TAKE MY DADDY AWAY? WHY? but like i said i dont need pity i dont need people telling me crap like ITS ALL GONNA BE OKAY . cos you know why ITS NOT GONNA BE OKAY ! IT NEVER WILL! how can losing your father BE OKAY? god you people are honestly fuckheads i hate it when people say that . dont you USE YOUR BRAINs TO THINK? for godsake.
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