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im AWESOME. you know it
just your ordinary 14-year old. you could clasify my life under ECCENTRIC. ive been thru alot. hurt&damaged
but never broken. lifes' never gotten easier , but im getting stronger. ive got friends whom are like family they live thru every
part of my life. hurt them and i'll hurt you , comprande? my lifes' simple yet complicated . love me or hate me , it aint so hard :)

you have no right at all to say what you said to the whole class today .

its noone's business & its not your duty to be telling the whole class about it . your not my mother & your just the class teacher ! you have no blood relationship with me whatsoever , & how long have you known me for ? 2 months perhaps ? & you think you understand me already ? i mean , i myself think tht i am a very complicated person to understand , even if i might seem very fun , outgoing & really really weird , plus i am loud ;) . but sometimes in the inside i am kinda fragile :\ you say tht by telling everyone tht my dad passed-away , yes i am being very opened about this now , as i said last time , i am getting stronger day by day , everyone would be able to understand me more , but what is there to understand about me , i am not troubled , i am not crazy & i dont need anybody's attention & i definately dont need people to treat me differently , i am happy whre i am today/right now , atleast people dont have to watch out on what they say because their to afraid they might break my "fragile" soul . but to be honest , i'd rather have people not mind what they say to me , i'd rather be in funny arguments or nonsensical fights . but now because of YOU , everyone seems to looking out and watching on what they say to me , i dont need "special attention" from anyone , all i want is for people to look at me & think of me as the same LALITHA , the used to know , the ohmygod that girl is crazy or the wow she's loud & funny girl not the ohmy that girl's dad passed away or whatever shit . but now i somehow think 2alpha is not gonna look at me with the same impression they looked at me for the past few months , jeff who wanted to borrow a correction pen had to think twice before asking me & he asked me really nicely this time . he'd probably just take it from my desk the last time but now after seeing me weept and cry things just change & i dont want/need those changes ; this was why i never wanted to tell anyone in the first place , i only tell when they ask but when the DO ask its not exactly caught off-guard so nothing changes tht much . but look at it now , everyone was so shocked and speechless . i mean if i was willing to tell i would , but i am not & its none of your business to tell on behalf of me , you can talk about your dead husband , but you have no right at all to talk about my father . its nobody's business and its definately not your duty to be blabbing it off to anyone , & besides i think i recalled telling you NOT to tell anyone about this cos i am uncomfortable about letting the whole world know about it , what difference would it make if i told everyone , their not going to understand me more if they havent been thru the same thing & besides i dont need a support group or anything like that , i am able to cope with my situation very well , my dad passed in the year 2006 , a year before my UPSR , instead of crying & weeping the whole day & blaming God for the misfortunates that my life come across , i strived for a goal & guess what i managed to get straight A's for my UPSR , & my studies arent dropping , i can manage both sports and studies together and also the outside school activities .

i mean sometimes i do feel sad and empty but we all have to learn to accept the fact that the person whom we dearly love is gone , i mean for me i lost my dad at a very young age , i barely had time to go through anything with him , but i dont sit around and regret anything i've done , i've only cherished the moments both good and bad which i had endured with him . & heads up lady , i am not the one who is trouble . look in the mirror , YOUR the one whose troubled . you cry yourself to sleep for godsake! thats not normal . i dont cry myself to sleep & i definately dont go around telling about other peoples life to anyone . i accept the fact that my daddy is gone & i think you need to seek help ! accept that your husband is gone & dont cry yourself to sleep , thats just unhealthy ! really it is ._. i am not really sure if your making the part up & if you did you still need help , WHY ARE YOU MAKING UP STORIES TO MAKE PEOPLE SYMPATHISE YOU ? all i know now is i dont have any sympathy towards you . all i feel is that your just an attention seeker . i am really sorry i have to write about you like this , i know i am supposed to show respect seeing that your the adult bt answer this , is it true that to gain respect is to show respect ? i mean just because your an adult doesnt mean you have the right to emotionally abuse someone JUST because YOU THINK that your seeking the best interest for them . remember your not my mum! you dont have to look at my best interest , i mean as a teacher looking at my studies is important bt just DONT BUTT IN into my life .

oh & why do you even care if i transfer to beta , once again , ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS .

i want to go to beta because i have friends who are like family . they care about you and they talk to you , BUT look at alpha , does anyone speak any other languange besides chinese ? :\ i mean i understand chinese larr . cos of the tuitions i go to , but still its random for some thaidian to speak chinese . anyways . how are we family when i just got to know these people a few months back , i mean i knew them before bt nt so close and guess what we're still not close .

unlike beta , alpha's stick up to their type only . so yes this is amongst the reason why i want to go back to beta & you have no right to force me to stay just because you want deepa to go to beta . & heads up deepa , you also have no right to go tell mr.ching MY problem . i am not your freaking best friend or anything , so yeah , once again PLS DONT BUTT IN . i am being really really nice right now & you really dont want to bring the rage in me out . so seriously MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS , if noone asked you PLS DONT give your oppinion .

thankyou very much .



i've been having a long speech running thru my mind on what i want to say but i dont think i'll say all of it , oh & wait , DEAR YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE , PLEASE DONT TWIST THE STORY AND SAID YOU ASKED FOR MY PERMISSION BEFORE YOU TOLD THE CLASS ABOUT ME , because heads up woman! you didnt ! STOP LYING TO YOURSELF , i have the whole class to back me up . so yeah .

& thankyou everyone for sticking by my side whether your close to me or not .
you guys are really hell of a awesum people :) & i am lucky to have you all as friends <3 back to top?